Hurt = Strength

I am so raw right now. I'm listening to Sade's new cd and I am letting go of some demons tonight. My heart hurts, my head is light and I am physically ill. In this month alone, I have been hit with many obstacles...and although I will overcome them, I am hurting a lot. I am not one to burden my friends or family with my problems because nobody is without their own. So I either keep them to myself and go on a quest to solve them, or I post them here.

This space is mine after all.

Without giving too many details, cancer has crept its way into my life via a very important family member. I pray as often as I can. I have lots of faith and I know that Gods will, will be done...but it still hurts.

Everything else is questionable as well. Could be a lot better, could be a lot worse. Just gonna keep thinking positive and I know that some way, some how, I am going to get it all together. I know things are going to get better and that all of this hurt, is just going to peel away and create a better, stronger me.

On a positive note, I have been spending a lot of time with somebody that I adore....hopefully he will stay around to see that the mess I am now, is only temporary. If not, this too, will help me in the long run.

I have cried enough tonight but I hope all who read this can either relate or at least understand that obstacles cannot keep you down. Even when it hurts, you gotta stay strong and think positive.

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