I want you..

..but I want you to want me too.

Just like I want you.

Just sayin'...

New things

I got rid of the Mistah ReD pics page because it just had a lot of pictures of me that I don't feel like sharing anymore. In its place, I started a new page that you can access by viewing my profile. It is titled Mike Milan in Pictures or you can go directly to it at http://mikemilanisakos.blogspot.com/. I will start going thru this blog and getting rid of some of the pics I can live without. Mainly the pics where I am showing too much skin. I will leave some...but a lot will go.

The pic I posted this week will be edited as well. UPDATE: it has been cropped.

Less is more.

Tacky of me, but too true..

Attention masculine bottom men; I am not competing with you, nor am I competing for you. Please stop all of the hating, because I don't want "your man." Stop thinking that your masculinity makes you a hot commodity in my eyes because it doesn't. I don't want you. I have no hang ups with my masculinity and I don't care if in your eyes, I am too fem for you.

Listen up, if you don't like me, I won't like you either. There is no need to throw your negative vibes my way because my jeans are tight. The very act of you being shady to me is you being what you think you are not...catty and bitchy aka having female traits aka just a step away from being fem. Don't confuse my manners for being interested in you..u make my vain ways seem small compared to ur inflated ego.

Fall back son...you're not my type. I stopped liking "thugs" when I left high school.

PS Your eyebrows are starting to grow back...u should do something about it.

Getting Ready

Since my class ended early this month, I have not been taking any pictures. My next class starts this Friday and I decided to take some pictures of myself to make sure I remembered how to use my manual options. This picture is all I am willing to share because the rest were for me to see how my body has changed in the last few weeks (and many were deleted..lol).

Not too bad, but I still have a long way to go before I really like what it all looks like.

I can't wait for the studio access.

Because emotions are real

I miss that feeling because i can still taste it
face to face with my arm across your body
you and i, we disappear into each other
I hold your hand and you protect my heart
time is so limited but it tends to stand still when we are together
a never ending symphony of fulfilled desires
you love me because I dedicate my purest actions to your existence
and I am fragile for your eyes only
Our life is outlined with priceless memories
and I raise a toast to our past, present and future
Because it is worth it


A song came on and it sparked some raw emotions. Nothing sad...it was all good. It reminded me of everytime I layed next to somebody and felt "that feeling.' It inspired me to write this piece. FYI: This is not for anybody in particular, just a celebration of the love and affection that I have experienced. Life is too short, but certain feelings can prolong the process..good and bad.

Desire VS Expectation

I was talking to one of my friends the other day, and we got into a good conversation about what I want out of a certain situation. Upon discussing different scenarios, a thought popped into my head: our desires are not the same as our expectations. Its a simple concept to grasp, and yet I think we are all a little guilty of letting our desires cloud our judgment. I know I am (guilty of such).

In the absence of employment, I seem to have quite a few desires. Some more materialistic while others are...well..personal. Lately, I have been a little out of character and somewhat needy with the people around me because I have pretty much run out of things to do and I am bored out of my mind. So bored, I may finally learn how to drive a damn car.

The only thing I want that I actually expect to get, is a job. Everything and everybody else..it will happen if it happens.

Sometimes I type too much..

..and then I take it back. Not because it wasn't true at the moment..but because I have so much time on my hands that I am putting too much of myself out there.

Hot!

This is what I look like in my house during this mini heatwave...



...Red dot and all! lol

Nina VS. Alf

With all of my time off I have decided to clean area's I have been too busy to reach. One of those area's is behind my PC. It is very dusty back there and just scary to look at. I also have an Alf stuffed animal on top of my monitor. Yes, Alf from Melmac. Anyhoo, I removed him and placed him near a big red Puma shopping bag. Somehow he ended up in the bag with his face sticking out.

Well, it has been about a week and Nina has been acting very strange. her eating habits have changed and she has been very nervous acting. Crying a lot and running back and forth. She has even lost some weight. So, today I decided to feel around her body to see if maybe she was in pain or something. Nothing. As far as eating, she still is a damn crumb snatcher, so I know she still has an appetite. Still, nothing. I was beginning to think that I have to bring her to the vet...which I can't really afford right now.

However, on one of her frantic runs, I heard her touch the big red Puma bag in the hallway only to see her dart back into the room. I looked into the hallway and noticed that Alf's face was looking back at me. No way...could this be it? The source of her paranoia and loss of interest in her food??? I had my roommate distract her while I removed Alf from the big red bag. Sure enough, she was back in the hallway. Only this time she almost jumped into the bag. She started searching around the bag and the hallway. She darted back in the room and looked very worried.

It was Alf! She was looking for him! Nina did not want to believe that he was gone so she became obsessed with the big red Puma shopping bag. I tried to put it in the pantry but she wouldn't stop stalking the door. So, we had to throw the bag out...in front of her!

Within minutes, Nina has finished a bowl of her dog food and has been crying less. It has been 2 days since she has eaten her food. Hopefully this is it...to think, she must have been tormented for a whole week. LOL

Awww..my baby girl!