Control is a Reality

It is so easy to forget how much control you really have over your life.  I have been fully aware of this for a few years now, but the last 8 months have caught me off guard.  I have given far too much credit to other people for my shortcomings.  I have believed that other people have caused my pain and aggravation when really, it has been my lack of self control that has made me so bipolar-like and helpless.

Don't get me wrong, some of ya'll have been awful to me! lol But my reactions have been very poor.  I have been walking around on emotional autopilot. Been playing victim for awhile and its not a roll I play well, its fucking tiring and has gotten me nowhere.  Who wants to walk around feeling useless?  Seriously, I have felt so useless and insecure...for what?  It hasn't done shit but slow me down and water down my opportunities.

It feels good to be able to look back and dissect my actions and emotions.  Its never too late to take control.

Anyhoo, I just had to let that go.

xoxo