More and more..

I am trying to get as much as possible out of the studio time. This is an acquaintance of mine that I have known for 11 damn years. Every photo of him was so good, I don't even know if I am posting the best pics. I originally wanted a high key shoot but realized that the pictures looked better with some shadowing.

I feel like high key shots look best with women. Just my opinion.

=)

Best thing ever

She makes me a believer.

Thank you, Mrs. Clinton for reminding  me why I am a democrat and why I love this country.

Seeing this really makes me understand that at some point in my life, sooner then later, I need to contribute to society in a bigger fashion and that giving up is not an option.

When you want to party...

...these people are essential! In 2006, when I went thru all of my life changes (its all been blogged! lol), these people helped me get my mind right. Nothing deep, we just partied and shared some really great times. I really love them for that year and I had to get them in one shoot. Not just for the practice, but for the memory.

I still have A LOT of shit to learn about studio lighting (and everything else), but I am determined.

;)

Gorgeous!

I have a lot of good shots of this model. Her name is Kaelyn, she was so easy to work with and the camera LOVED her. We used an enormous soft box. It was hand made and was about 8 feet tall and 8 feet wide! You could stand in front of the soft box and the light would be unaffected. Its like it would cut right thru you.

One thing that I noticed about this shoot, is that I REALLY need a new lense and I have to start doing a white balance before I shoot. I say that because the pictures are properly lit, but they look kind of flat.Something is missing in these pics...the vibrance is lost somewhere.

Anyhoo, I think that I have been doing a swell job considering my bum lense. lol

So I give myself a pat on the back!

It's Starting

I'm starting to get scared. lol

This move is coming real quick and other then the desire and drive, I don't have a place to live or to work. Technically, it still is a little soon to find either of the two for October. But still, September is coming and that is when everything is going to have to get done. I can start to feel how "to the wire" everything is going to be.

I also have a list of people I need to spend time with before I leave. So much to do...

See.

This is why I have given up dating in boston:

(This is an Instant Message convo that I had with somebody that I barely know.)

a (11:36:58 PM): mikey wen can I egt my beso?
g0mikey (11:37:15 PM): i have no idea
a (11:39:05 PM): well pencil me in
g0mikey (11:39:15 PM): lol
g0mikey (11:39:22 PM): i dont do dates anymore
a (11:39:45 PM): fo real
a (11:39:51 PM): lol
g0mikey (11:39:52 PM): not in boston
g0mikey (11:39:58 PM): i went on my last one yesterday
a (11:41:14 PM): oh damn he got u
g0mikey (11:41:23 PM): was a total asshole
g0mikey (11:41:31 PM): i been having bad dates all summer
g0mikey (11:41:33 PM): so im thru
a (11:41:38 PM): fo real
a (11:41:50 PM): nah u didn't give me a chance
g0mikey (11:41:56 PM): I can't
g0mikey (11:41:57 PM): sorry
g0mikey (11:42:06 PM): im done with summer dating in boston
a (11:42:11 PM): das wassup
g0mikey (11:42:13 PM): im gonna wait till i move to do that again
g0mikey (11:42:19 PM): nothing personal
a (11:42:29 PM): its cute u was no1 anyways
g0mikey (11:42:44 PM): um..it wasnt personal
g0mikey (11:42:55 PM): but clearly, u just made it that way.

Now this myspace mesage is from somebody who has been asking for XXX pics and just being too much and just nasty. We live close to each other and he may have forgotten..but when we first started chatting a few months ago..he wanted to meet. So u put his desire to meet along with his desire to see XXX pics of me, and to know about certain areas of my body, and guess what the fuck I am going to think? Ok....read on:

Original Message -----------------From: LAME Date: Aug 19, 2008 12:28 AM
How come you never talk to me?

Original Message -----------------From: Go Mikey Milan!Date: Aug 19, 2008 12:30 AM
because im not into u.

Original Message -----------------From: LAME Date: Aug 19, 2008 12:42 AM
I was never looking to hook up dude...Besides you arn't even my type...Though your bod hair and ass are hot...thats all

See, you can't even reject somebody without them going on the offense.

PS, he has never seen my arse, so I have no idea why he thinks its "hot." gross.

I am so done. lol

Mirror, Mirror...

"when I dont have the strength, im just a mirror of what I see.."

That line has always struck a chord with me, Its from the Isley Brothers cover of At Your Best, sung by Aaliyah. Right now, I am feeling like that with where I live and who I surround myself with. I have a lot of mixed emotions about leaving this city, but one thing is for sure, I am allowed to feel good about being here now because I know I may not be here in another month and a half. That's it. If there wasn't a plan and I was just resigned to living here, I would be a different person. Probably unhappy and bitchy. lol

I walk around this neighborhood and I look at my dog, beautiful surroundings, nice neighbors and realize that no matter how tired I am of this lifestyle, it has been good to me and I am really going to miss it with all my heart, but change is the best remedy for complacency.

As far as people are concerned, I don't have it in me to give extra, I can't pull teeth and I can't make myself care for recklessness anymore. I have been disregarded and disrespected a few times this summer and I will say that it stung at first, but it no longer does. I now meet disregard and disrespect with a firm handshake because its easy to throw the trash out. Harsh, I know, but at this point, I can't do what I am trying to do AND figure other people out. Sorry, not gonna happen.

Wanna pull my ears? ha! Thats a dirty joke...I hope somebody gets it.

Studio Time

So I have been saying that I am going to get into the studio and figure out how to use all the equipment bla bla bla. Well, I did..sorta. I went into the studio and figured I would just use myself as the subject...to save myself the embarassment of looking like a damn fool in front of a model. Yes..! I am paranoid like that!

Anyhoo, it was some parts easy, most parts hard. If you have a keen eye, or are a photographer with studio lighting knowledge, you will see the simple flaws in my pics. Its all good tho. I will get there..I am determined. However, I cannot do this using myself as the subject again. It was quite painful being everything in this shoot.

Here are a few of the shots I took:










Snap for the kids! lol






;)

-Sigh-

So far this summer, I have gone out on a few dates with a few different people. I have had multiple dates with some but they all end up the same: they lose interest in me. Yes, its true, I am human. lol

I do not understand why that happens, I am genuinely nice and honest. I am sure it is something I am doing but I really have no idea. So, I am not going to dwell on it...but it is something that I need to be aware of if I ever want to be of interest to anybody.

And please, don't give me that "how could somebody like you have trouble dating?!" Its so fucking agravating. EVerytime I hear that I seriously want to slap that person to sleep. Ugh

Anyhoo, I havent shaved in over 2 weeks because I want to do this self photo shoot with a full face of hair. It looks really crazy. I cant wait to get this over with already.

Boooo

Lady GaGa

What I thought was another dance song from just another hungry plastic white girl turned out to be a lot more. "Just Dance," from Lady GaGa is a good song but also a good front for a hardcore NYC artist who has the kind of street cred that we haven't seen since possibly the 80's. After reading her bio, I cannot wait to see what else she hasin store. Here is a performance piece from her page:



http://ladygaga.com/news/

Don't just take my word for it, read up on her. I gaurantee you will feel refreshed.

Links

So I decided to add links to my page. Well, I didn't just decide, I just didn't know how to do it until now! Anyhoo, if you have a link to my page on your page, let me know and I will gladly add yours.

-Mikey-

Obsession.

"fIa [10:08 P.M.]: for some reason some of his pictures reminds me of you http://fsagat.blogspot.com/
G0Mikey [10:20 P.M.]: really??
G0Mikey [10:20 P.M.]: why?
fIa [10:20 P.M.]: some of his poses reminds of you
G0Mikey [10:21 P.M.]: ugh...i LOVE him
G0Mikey [10:21 P.M.]: he is my obsession!"

I am obsessed with this man. I blame this on my trip to Atlanta. The friend that I stayed with introduced me to this Francois Sagat via a hot calendar. Ever since then, I have been so intrigued by him. Not just because of his beauty, but because he is an artist. Without words, this man creates gorgeous pieces of art with nothing but his skin and raw sexual power. You have to see it to understand what I am talking about. He also is a porn star..but I have yet to see any of his porns.

Check out his blog, but be warned, this is NOT suitable for work!!!!



http://fsagat.blogspot.com/