Blog From Work.

I have been listening to Janet Jackson’s Velvet Rope album lately. Its very therapeutic. Last month I decided to take a break from MySpace and AIM because it takes up too much of my time. I have not been onto my MySpace account since April 30th and I used AIM a few times this past week. Only in moderation and I have mainly stayed invisible. I used it a couple of times while being visible to people on my buddy list and it was messy.

I kept getting interrupted while working on pics on my PC and I was highly annoyed. So I think all that time away from AIM has changed my view on it. I am going to use it when I have to or when I am really bored. No more being accessible thru AIM all day. Its just too much.

I have been getting many messages on myspace and I am eager to see how I react to being on it again. I know that people like to talk to me and add me as a friend because I am nude in pretty much everything…but that will soon change. I don’t regret being in the buff in all of those pics but I am growing tired of my naked body being all over my page. Its like wearing the same shirt in every pic. Its like…do u own anything else? Or in this case..do you own anything at all!? Lol I will result to publishing my barely clothed pics on my blog (here).

I have been featured on 2 porn related websites and I have no problem with that at all. I have gotten great emails from people who have seen me on these sites. Dudetube.com and StarrFucker.net

Im writing this blog in email form from work. I will email it to my reg email account and cut and paste it into my blog when I get home.

PS, I am tired so I took a redbull and I have the shakes!! Ouch!

Play

Muse and I spent the day together on Friday and took some pics. It was hot as hell and we were sweating with every step. At one point I had him wipe my back because it was dripping wet. I like the outcome of the pics. These are just a few of the good ones.

We also tried on skinny jeans at American Apparel and found out that we look great in a size 27 stretchy pair of corduroy. Not at the same time of course. lol

Mike.

Bits and Pieces

I saw Amy Winehouse recently and although she sounded great...it was not a show I would recommend. She was extremely boring and has absolutely no stage presence. The only wow factors to me are how much bigger her hair is and how skinny she really is.

I'm seeing Nelly Furtado in a week or so...I have 6Th row seats on the floor. Can't wait for that! I cannot wait to hear In God's Hands. It is supposed to be her next single too. I was hoping it wouldn't be released because its a very personal song. Its so late in the CD so most likely nobody will give a shit. She has had like 7 damn singles.

I may be seeing "celebrity" blogger Perez Hilton this week as well. That should be very interesting.

Lets see...I applied for 2 more positions at my job. Cross your fingers!!

I have 2 photo shoots for the month of June and of course I have my Muse. There will be many sporadic pics of him.

After my trip to NYC last weekend (the weekend of the 12th), I found myself feeling really sad about living here again. So I have some tricks up my sleeve.

2006 and so far 2007 are like nite and day for me so far. Not sure if that's a good thing yet..but I'm keeping it moving.

It just feels so slow...

Tall, Dark and Vegan

I followed John all thru SoHo on Satrday afternoon. It can be a bit challenging keeping up with those "model legs," but I was up for the task and as usual, it was quite the learning experience. John showed me where he shops and brought me to a really nice show room where the most beautiful tiles were on display. There was a "no picture" policy so we had to commit fashion espionage to get that one pic of him in the display bathroom. Just another day in NYC.

It was very sunny out and we walked around NYU and ate some snacks while talking about life. He is such a breath of fresh air because he is like walking art and is taking the right steps in the direction he wants to be in. Im proud of John and also privledged to have people like him around to inspire me and to prove that it can be done. He also has the most nastiest mouth I have encountered. Ha! Thankfully I am not easily offended by words because I don't have the purest mouth my-damn-self.

Amen to that.

Anniversaries

This weekend was a one year anniversary to a few life changing moments in my life.

RIP Travis.

Thank you for showing the world that a man can change. It may not have been visable to the naked eye, but you were humbled by your circumstance to the point where the beautiful person God intended you to be shined so bright that your sincerity touched many hearts. Where ever you are, you are loved.

China,

You are the most amazing person I have ever met. You are the most constant person in my life and I can't imagine my life without you. This time last year I was so distraught with Travis's death on top of my own problems and you saved me. I don't know how many times I have said that before..but its so true. I may not have been like this today because I was so lost.

I spent this weekend in NYC and I had a blast. No need to name drop because you all know who you are, thank you. I will post my pics right after this blog.

Im a bit emotional right now because I have the right to be.

Mikey needs sleep.

Goodnight.

Unfulfilled.

No exaggeration in that title at all. Let's see...I unintentionally got wasted on Friday night, got up early the next day with a hang over and along with another friend, drove to NYC to get some important stuff for a mutual friend. While in NYC I was supposed to get a shirt touched up with some rhinestones (im gay. lol) and possibly get some lunch in the city. Unfortunately we did not have enough time to do anything but pick up the equipment and come right back home. I did get to stop by a gathering for less then 5 minutes. We were really pressed for time so 5 minutes was too much time.

I called the friend we were doing the favor for and realized that we forgot a few important items. They weren't the most important things but different things mean different things to different people. After our convo ended I felt a little defeated. Like I had gone to NYC to do this favor only to not do it right. But after a while I thought to myself that maybe it wasn't such a big deal and that this friend didn't even say thank you or even express any gratitude. Nothing. He was actually supposed to call me back and didn't. I actually called him on Sunday and he was busy at work..and again...was supposed to call me back. Nothing.

Im a little pissed off because I volunteered to get certain items for him before it was too late. If I didn't volunteer to help he would have had nothing. Absolutely nothing. After I volunteered to pick up these specific items, I all of a sudden was in charge of getting everything that he wanted and needed. I don't need a gold medal or to be praised...but a simple thank you or a sign of being thankful would suffice. bleh.

Lesson learned.

I have spent my whole day off and on the phone with my other friend who broke up with his boyfriend. Its sad to hear him all distraught because I care for my friends a lot and I am very loyal and supportive. I will listen all summer if I have to, because I know what he is going thru.

Since I gave myself to my friends this weekend I decided that a little bootycall would do me some justice. Nope. After I finished I just felt gross. This is somebody I have been seeing every so often for the last year. Sweet guy, extremely sexy..but I think I am done with sex for now.

This weekend sucked.

Time 2 Reflect.

PS I am listening to the Above the Rim Soundtrack.

What you know about that?? lol

Dudetube Link.

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It was a long day and I accomplished the routine. I feel a bit empty. Im a little lonely this evening and in a small funk. Just can't wait for what is next. Whatever that may be.

Nina was in bad shape this week and it really scared me. Pets are like kids and when something happens you cannot control, it can really affect your mood. She is better, and I am happy to have her back to normal. It almost makes me want to give her away so that I dont have to deal with such fear over what I cant control. But that would be silly of me because I love her. Plus I dont give up that easily. My baby girl needs me and is always happy to see me come home.

A good friend of mine and his boyfriend of 4 years almost broke up this week. It was a little devasting for me because I love them together and they give me hope. I have learned alot from them as far as loving unselfishly is concerned. I mean they obviously have their own problems and are not perfect, but they are wonderful together. Sometimes people get too comfortable and get bored. It happens...thats why you have to be open all the time and willing to compromise and keep things fresh. Anyhoo..I love them and am happy they are still together.

I have decided to stay off Myspace and any kind of instant messanger for the month of May because I spend entirely too much time on them and I need to be able to function and entertain myself without them. Maybe that is why I am lonely. lol

This weekend I will be going to NYC to pick up some studio equipment for a friend of mine. I might go to a club if time permits.

It's late already and I need to sleep.

Grrrrr!