Like a (little) Brother.

Paul is like a younger brother. Not because we are alike, because really, we are polar opposites, but because he reminds me of a younger brother... and I really do care for him as one.

Here and there.

I have lots to say, but I am having one of those moments where I feel it is best to just let things ride. Im gonna keep being positive and reaching for success. Thats all I can do...I have no other options. In the meantime, here are a few pics from the last few months. House parties, clubs, around Williamsburg BK and behind the scenes at a music video shoot. All good times.

Also, peep my cameo in this video. I met up with Angel Laws, creator of Concreteloop.com, and Coco and Breezy. Just a reminder, Coco and Breezy are the girls who created the ferocious studded glasses that I wore in some pics I posted here a few months back. Im sure your memory will be refreshed once you see this vid:

Links to have: Coco and Breezy and Angel on Fire.

Enjoy.

Remixed.

I took some pics that I posted last year, and played around with them in Photoshop.

It was fun making these. I need to get back into Photoshop, I used to be pretty good.

Like Old Times.

I was bored, so I picked up my camera and took a bunch of pics in my roommate's room. The natural lighting was gorgeous and I set up my tripod and went to town. My last place in Boston was way more inspiring then where I live now, in Brooklyn. Its really clean and modern/sterile looking here. In Boston, the apartment had so much old school character. Every room and hallway was worthy of a shoot.

It made the tediousness of self picture taking rewarding. These pics here are ok. I like them, but I don't love them like my previous self pics. Anyhoo, here they are.

I love Teedra Moses

Hey Teedra, first and foremost, your show was everything I wanted and more. It was intimate, you sounded great and I knew pretty much all of the songs ( i need to get familiar with more of ur mixtape music tho!). I look forward to seeing another show whenever the opportunity presents itself.

Your music is part of the soundtrack of my life. I have experienced many important life experiences since your album has dropped and I have listened to your songs for strength and inspiration. Everybody that I have introduced your work to, falls in love with you. There is such a great connection in your music. Every word is so sincere that it makes me feel like I can believe everything you say. You are the kind of artist that other artists strive to be. You don't just make music that sounds good, you create connections. I Think of You (Shirley's Song) has gotten me through a lot. Everything from the ending of a long term relationship, to the passing of my uncle. I would keep it on repeat, cry and write my heart out. Its hard to put into words, but that song really helped me out of some really tough times.

I am not just a fan of your music, I am a fan of you. Not that I know your personal life, but the fact that you keep making music, performing and the way you treat your fans, is priceless. You really put your heart into your work and it shows. I can never thank you enough for blessing the world with your beautiful songs. The fact that you knew who I was when I walked into the venue, was life changing! lol I look up to you and I look forward to more of your music.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you!

Mike Milan

For those of you who do not know of Teedra Moses, please look into her. She is available on iTunes and is worth every penny.

Oh Baby!

My first time shooting a child. It was definitely challenging. I had to chase him for good shots. lol However, he's adorable and one of those "good babies." You know what Im talking about..the kind that doesn't show out in public and call his mom a bitch or something. lol You seen them babies!! You know what I mean! lol

Anyhoo, apart from being a good baby, he photographed well.

Balance.

I spoke to a friend earlier this evening about a somewhat messy situation that caused a little bit of friction between us. Once her story and my story were put together, the whole story made more sense and we were able to move on from it with a better understanding of each other. Although I have had my fair share of good friends gone bad, I am always open to potentially good people. I mean, who has perfect friends?

Im writing this because I am grateful to be able to connect with this new friend. As I get older and start to put a lot pieces together, it gets harder to feel like I can make new friends. I wouldn't say that I am jaded, just able to see through the bullshit a lot faster. Hence a lot of that time I would normally spend getting to know somebody, gets a little shorter when I see that they are not up to par. Which is why I cherish the friends I have now. I am very independent and may seem to fall off at times, but I promise that I never leave my friends behind. My heart is much too big for that.

So yes, mistakes happen but if its worth it, there is always a way to balance it out.

I can go on about myself and my characteristics, but my actions describe me better. ;)

Totally unrelated, these are test pics for Madison Kelly bags.

Where's Mikey?

Good times.

Fear is the Enemy.

In this year, I have been published twice: Once in Nylon magazine and once in AMNY. Because these opportunities came fast and without me fully understanding how hard it can be to get into a publication, I haven't really enjoyed it...or given myself the proper credit. When I say credit, I don't mean telling other people...I mean telling MYSELF. Yes, I got these shots through an amazing friend, but if I were garbage, I wouldn't be in Nylon Magazine, would I?

So, there is a fear in me. I think I have been living with this fear since I got laid off last year. Like, what am I going to do with myself? How am I going to make that much money again? Was I really that good or was I just lucky? All of that shit that I just pollute my mind with...it all comes from this fear of me not being good enough. It doesn't just come from me either. It was also fueled by people around me too. If you are reading this, you know who you are.

Negative friends aside, I allowed all of this fear to build up in my head, but not my heart. I have a lot to offer and Im gonna be diligent. I may not know exactly what I want, but I know I love to work...and this is a start.

Tomorrow (or later today), I have a little shoot with a celebrity that will hopefully get published as well. Yes, me and my beat up Rebel XSI are working overtime. I also want to add that my camera makes me insecure too. lol I show up to these events with my beginners camera and this shitty fucking lens and all of these other photographers, and even random bystanders, have better equipment then me! lol a mess! I have to control myself from putting my camera away. But you know what? I gotta start somewhere, right?

Fear is an enemy that I must conquer with hard work and determination.

Here are a few pics that I took in the last few weeks. Some were backstage at the Operations Show for Fashion Week, VMA Gift Suite and a shoot I did with a friend for her book.

I wanted to post something...

...but I just don't feel like talking.

Trusting.

I asked a question on my twitter and received a unanimous answer. The question was "would u trust a person who sleeps with their friends ex boyfriends, dates and boyfriends?" everybody answered "no." I then asked if they could be friends with somebody they can't trust. The answer was also, no. I have to say that I agree.

Custom Shades Rock!!!

With the help of my friend Ellis, I was able to take these pics. These shades make for good pics. I got them from these very talented twins, Coco and Breezy. I met them in SoHo last month and was floored by their funky style and amazing shades. They were literally causing a scene on Broadway. People were slowing down to look at them. Anyhoo, they are very sweet and made these shades for me. You can place orders on their website: cocoandbreezy.com