Birthday Party Pics

Feb 15th was my birthday but Feb 17th was the celebration for it. My dear friend Stephanie (aka my other big sister) came up with the idea to have a party. It worked and I along with everybody else had a great time. Here are some pics:

Thank you to everybody who showed up (not everybody is pictured). There was a little over 40 people throughout the night and it was drama free with plenty to drink. There was nothing but smiles, laughter and memorable moments. Thanks to it being my party (making it not kosher to be the usual drunk I am) there were less scandals. Ha!

Love ya!

Mikey

Happy Valentine's Day

Good Mourning - India Arie

Good mourning silence, good mourning to myself
Good mourning to the pain in the center of my chest
It's crazy how much I miss A simple good mourning kiss
Good mourning independence or is it loneliness
I know I said I wanted this but I have regrets
I prayed for God's will to be done
The very next day you were gone
Good mourning to the harsh realities of life
And good mourning to the fact we're not husband and "wife"
We made a promise to stay
But destiny got in the way
Good mourning Good mourning acceptance, good mourning inner strength
I'm loving every moment even the strain
It's crazy how much I miss
A simple good mourning kiss
It's crazy how much I've missed
Now it's time for me to live
Good mourning Good mourning optimism good mourning to my faith
Good mourning to the beginning of a brand new day
I know that God's Will will be done
So I lay down my pain and I'm moving on
I know that God's Will will be done
So it's a good morning after all

This song along with "In God's Hands," by Nelly Furtado and India.Arie's cover to Don Henleys "Heart of the Matter," helped me get to this day. I have to say that I am doing great compared to this time last year. Thankfully, I am no longer that person: http://redreport.blogspot.com/2006/02/dear-valentine.html

I love you all and on this Valentine's Day I hope you find love within yourself.

Mikey

Real Mary fans know..

..that when Mary cries...you cry.



This Grammy Performance (along with her first win onstage) had me holding back my tears. I love Mary like she is family. I have watched her grow and I have grown with her. No matter how happy Mary gets, we will always see the pain on her face that she had to endure. And oddly enough it looks great.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsNH2q2qDmM

I love you Mary.

Slow

I have been meaning to post for quite some time now but I have been lazy. Since I am not only single, but refraining from partying and hanging out, I have been spending too much time online. Not only that, but I have a Sidekick phone that keeps me connected when I am out. Its such an odd cycle that I have fallen into. I have so much to type about that I have been holding in..but as usual, when the moment passes I let it go and move onto the next.

My Birthday is this week (feb 15th) and I will be 28 years old. Madness! Now more and more I see how much time I have to catch up on. Its weird because I see Britney Spears doing all of that shit to herself and being this huge mess...but I really sympathize with that woman. She really has been thru a lot and is just doing all of the wrong things because she is so lost in her emotions that she can't see past her pain. That was me last year. Of course on a much smaller scale. I am better now. However, it takes more then just a new year to change everything. It takes time.

Not only does it take time, but it takes a lot of inner strength. As I played thru 2006, I didn't fully grasp how much I would be paying for it in 2007. I put myself in this party state of mind that had me out at least 3 nights a week, drunk, spending too much on clothes (sneakers!) and traveling. I keep reminding myself that it takes baby steps to progress. Its because of this state of mind that I believe that people can change. I have so much faith in myself..I know I can change...I just have to focus.

Valentine's Day is coming up and for obvious reasons I cannot wait for it to come and go. Around this time I can't help but to think of my ex and how this is the time last year (today to be exact) that we broke up. And of course I remind myself that it takes time. It really does...somtimes I cant tell if Im still waiting.

On a random note I am sporting a small hicky on my neck. lol Not something I like but it was worth it.

=)