Still Nasty.

               

 

My friend wanted to do a shoot with my leash and I obliged. He was inspired by a pic that I took of myself awhile back. Its the picture of me in the doorway with a blindfold and chain (you can see it on the side of the blog along with some other of my fav self shots). After taking his pictures, I thought it would be scandalous to jump in the photo with him. In my mind, I thought it would look hotter, but it worked either way. 

Despite the sweat and closeness, we are JUST friends. No funny business. lol Serious.

And there you have it.

I was REALLY bored and up TOO late.

I was up way too late and created this mess. Hey, its better then one of those lip synching videos! lol

Warm it Up (with love)

Ok, I have to go on a music rant. I wont go all crazy or take up too much of your time. But, I have to take some time out to let you all know how GREAT Brandy's cd is. Seriously, this has to be the BEST cd I have listened to all year. My friend Rob said, "You have to be too young or have no taste in music to not like this." Although that may sound extreme, if you are a pop music fan, then this is essential.

In this album, Brandy sings her heart out. She is singing like I have never heard her sing before and I feel every last note. I really want her to win...I do. I want her to have that commercial success that she once had and deserves. However, if it compromises the work that she is putting out, I will have to be satisfied because this is GREAT music. When I play it, I can't help but to sing to it.

Don't sleep on Brandy. She is part of that rare 90's breed of R&B pop music that help shape what we hear today. She is a living legend and is still relevant to pop music. 

How is Brandy legendary? Because she also helped define music in the 90's and if she stopped making music today, she would always be remembered and covered. 

Do music a favor and pick up her cd.

I promise, you will appreciate it! I a practically begging you...lol

Seriously. Give great music a chance.

Fuck Up

Thats kind of what I am feeling like right now. I have been asked to do a few photo shoots and I have kind of ignored them all. Not intentionally...but Im scared. Such dumb shit. On a random note, I may have some photo's appear in Nylon Magazine. Nothing huge, they are doing a piece on my friend's salon and he asked me to take the pictures that will be included with the article. Fun stuff!

I don't feel like explaining myself anymore. Im just gonna have to get the ball rolling. My office reality has turned into a pipe dream, so I might as well get my artistic hustle on.

Here is a pic of me getting my model on for my friend, Paul's camera. It was at 14th st. It was proly like 4am. 

lol

Do I Look Crazy?

I was looking for a new profile pic because I am currently sporting facial hair. The one before this was pretty fresh faced with short hair. I now sport a beard and bigger hair. I was going to use this one but then after cropping it, I noticed that I look possessed. Its quite funny.

Hi!! lol

Better late then never...

These are the Halloween pics that I received a few days ago. It was a very fun night and there are many other pics but I look like a sweaty mess in them. lol

I think I may be Prince next year. Like, Purple Rain Prince.

Faith.

So I have been battling a small cold the last few days and I am so ready to get over it already. For the last few weeks I have been feeling a little stagnant with my life. Everyday I wake up, I feel like I am starting all over again. Just the whole job search and constant effort to keep busy. I am not complaining! I know people have it worse and I am fully aware of how good I have it, but I not one to be complacent. Plus, I really don't have that option. I can't be jobless forever and I need to have a steady set of friends (or one) to keep me sane. You know, like a partner in crime? Yes.

Being sick brings about a lot of thoughts and emotions. Some people may feel lonely because they would like to have somebody to take care of them or you can be like me and feel even more determined to take care of business when you are well again. However, this time around, I am not just more determined, but I am questioning my faith. Many people do not know that I grew up in a church setting and brought myself to Sunday School for many years. I even went to a church summer camp in Maine. I read the Bible often and I genuinely loved spending time at church. All of this was by my own design and not my family. I did this on my own.

Even more surprising is that I grew up in Christian Science. Its a very strict religion that does not believe in doctors or medicine (No its not Scientology). I won't give too many details about what the Christian Science Church stands for because I have fallen out of practice for about 10 years and I cannot do it any justice. But, feel free to Google it ;)

I read a passage in Science and Health because I wanted to have some food for my prayers. I was reminded that the very foundation of this religion is the belief in Jesus and God. Pretty simple, but it occurred to me that practicing Christian Science would be harder this time around because I may not have that strong faith anymore. I was raised to believe in God and Jesus, and that will always be in my heart, but I will acknowledge that I may be "tainted." I do not know exactly what I mean by that, but I am not the same little boy who prayed so effortlessly and wholeheartedly to God.  

I have some family members who are Christian Republicans that believe that I do not deserve to have the same rights as them and they pray to God too.

 

Things happen for a reason and I am sure I will have a better grip on my faith again. But for now, I am going to live my life loving my brothers and sisters with the respect they deserve. 

I could go on and on with this, but I would type myself in circles.  

Anyhoo, I still pray and I do so for my loved ones often.

Thanks for getting this far.