The Sum Up.

I saw Nelly Furtado this past Tuesday and she was AMAZING. Despite her recorded music and her live performances I had seen on youtube or award shows, her voice was much bigger then I expected. I actually expected her to strain thru some of her songs. She was everything and more and I cannot wait to see her again.

I was still sick when I went to see her but turns out..I wasn't sick. The doctors took my blood and ran a lot of tests and they were scratching their heads. Everything as it seems was fine, and the day after I got my results..I felt brand new again. Some of it was mental, if not most. Im in a very crappy place right now. Im realizing everyday that I need to step it up a notch. I will give myself credit because I am trying everyday to change things around me. Applying for higher paying positions and setting up photoshoots when I can. I may have one coming up this Friday. Cross your fingers!

Progress is very slow right now and I am have been even more antsy now then I was before. I need to not live in this apartment anymore. It is really affecting the way I think and as I have stated before, once I get out of this place I'll be able to think clearly.

Thats all I do lately...think. Don't take this as a complaint. Its just what it is. Im tired of complaining.

My good friend that lived with me who moved away from Boston, is moving back sometime next month. I am excited because it will be so good to have him around again.

I don't need a vacation, I need to leave.

Bits and Pieces

I saw Amy Winehouse recently and although she sounded great...it was not a show I would recommend. She was extremely boring and has absolutely no stage presence. The only wow factors to me are how much bigger her hair is and how skinny she really is.

I'm seeing Nelly Furtado in a week or so...I have 6Th row seats on the floor. Can't wait for that! I cannot wait to hear In God's Hands. It is supposed to be her next single too. I was hoping it wouldn't be released because its a very personal song. Its so late in the CD so most likely nobody will give a shit. She has had like 7 damn singles.

I may be seeing "celebrity" blogger Perez Hilton this week as well. That should be very interesting.

Lets see...I applied for 2 more positions at my job. Cross your fingers!!

I have 2 photo shoots for the month of June and of course I have my Muse. There will be many sporadic pics of him.

After my trip to NYC last weekend (the weekend of the 12th), I found myself feeling really sad about living here again. So I have some tricks up my sleeve.

2006 and so far 2007 are like nite and day for me so far. Not sure if that's a good thing yet..but I'm keeping it moving.

It just feels so slow...

Happy Valentine's Day

Good Mourning - India Arie

Good mourning silence, good mourning to myself
Good mourning to the pain in the center of my chest
It's crazy how much I miss A simple good mourning kiss
Good mourning independence or is it loneliness
I know I said I wanted this but I have regrets
I prayed for God's will to be done
The very next day you were gone
Good mourning to the harsh realities of life
And good mourning to the fact we're not husband and "wife"
We made a promise to stay
But destiny got in the way
Good mourning Good mourning acceptance, good mourning inner strength
I'm loving every moment even the strain
It's crazy how much I miss
A simple good mourning kiss
It's crazy how much I've missed
Now it's time for me to live
Good mourning Good mourning optimism good mourning to my faith
Good mourning to the beginning of a brand new day
I know that God's Will will be done
So I lay down my pain and I'm moving on
I know that God's Will will be done
So it's a good morning after all

This song along with "In God's Hands," by Nelly Furtado and India.Arie's cover to Don Henleys "Heart of the Matter," helped me get to this day. I have to say that I am doing great compared to this time last year. Thankfully, I am no longer that person: http://redreport.blogspot.com/2006/02/dear-valentine.html

I love you all and on this Valentine's Day I hope you find love within yourself.

Mikey

In God's Hands

I bought 29 CD's last year because I bought like 2 the year before. Not only did I buy up all of the sneakers but I bought up all of the damn music too! I am a HUGE music fanatic and have a lot of knowledge about inside stuff. Its such a passion. Im like amusic stalking whore. For real. At some point I hope to make a few tacky 80's inspired songs of my own...before I die. Please.

So yes, I would like to hi-lite one CD in particular: Nelly Furtado's "Loose." That album got me thru my whole year. It spoke volumes to me. I was in such a hard place all year and yet "Loose" not only helped me escape my fears with all of its infectious dance tracks, it helped drain a lot of my tears with ONE track. Yes ONE track that summed up my failed relationship. "In God's Hands" has to be one of the best songs I have ever heard. Its not a masterpiece...its raw. If you have ever been in a relationship with somebody that you genuinely love during and after it has ended...and would want it back...this is the song for you. Can't express how I never let go of that light no matter how dark it got.

I love it to pieces and still play that song along with the entire album..over and over and over again.

Just wanted to share that.