Because I needed a good douche for the New Year.

Let's see, how do I make this as short as possible? A former acquaintance sent me a friends request on facebook. We were "freinds" on myspace until he deleted me. He lives in NYC and sent me a msg on myspace asking me how my move was. When I read the msg, I had a guest over from Boston and was too busy to reply. However, I did show my guest his page and we were complimenting his pictures (oh, the irony that follows). They were really nice and he's handsome. So, when my guest left, I wrote him a very detailed reply, only to realize that I couldn't send him a msg. When I hit the send button I got an immediate reply telling me that only people on his friends list could send him messages. Sure enough, I was no longer on it.

I decided to send him a message on AIM, but he didn't reply. So, I just let it go. He was never a friend, just somebody I chatted with online and a few times over the phone. Its all good, no harm done. This happened in October. So...when I got his req on facebook, I sent him a msg about it. This is our convo:


Me
January 15 at 11:08am
..didnt u delete me from your myspace friends list?


Douche
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January 15 at 11:16am
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this automatically sent to folk in my address book. you were still there.


Me
January 15 at 11:20am
ah ok. I guess now is a good time to clean it up.


Douche
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January 15 at 11:32am
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true

Ok, although this is not and never was an important person, it still blew me away. How can a grown ass man, well into his 30's, be such a fucking cunt? lol Seriously dude, what is your problem and why do you think people have to drop everything they are doing so they can reply to a message on myspace? If it were that much of a concern to you, you should have called or sent me a text. AND because he probably had some kind of small remorse or regret for deleting me so fast, he sent me a msg on some "other site" and asked me how my move was...again. I told him it went well and the convo stopped after that. So yeah, that request was not an accident. One look at his page and you can see he is not new to facebook.

You ever go to somebody's page and it has all of these words of wisdom type shit and these cliche fucking proverbs? He is one of those people. So, you think you are about to chat with a well rounded individual but instead you are talking to self centered super toddler with a chip on his shoulder.

So yeah, fuck you and your nasty self entitled attitude. You just did me a huge favor.

;)

See.

This is why I have given up dating in boston:

(This is an Instant Message convo that I had with somebody that I barely know.)

a (11:36:58 PM): mikey wen can I egt my beso?
g0mikey (11:37:15 PM): i have no idea
a (11:39:05 PM): well pencil me in
g0mikey (11:39:15 PM): lol
g0mikey (11:39:22 PM): i dont do dates anymore
a (11:39:45 PM): fo real
a (11:39:51 PM): lol
g0mikey (11:39:52 PM): not in boston
g0mikey (11:39:58 PM): i went on my last one yesterday
a (11:41:14 PM): oh damn he got u
g0mikey (11:41:23 PM): was a total asshole
g0mikey (11:41:31 PM): i been having bad dates all summer
g0mikey (11:41:33 PM): so im thru
a (11:41:38 PM): fo real
a (11:41:50 PM): nah u didn't give me a chance
g0mikey (11:41:56 PM): I can't
g0mikey (11:41:57 PM): sorry
g0mikey (11:42:06 PM): im done with summer dating in boston
a (11:42:11 PM): das wassup
g0mikey (11:42:13 PM): im gonna wait till i move to do that again
g0mikey (11:42:19 PM): nothing personal
a (11:42:29 PM): its cute u was no1 anyways
g0mikey (11:42:44 PM): um..it wasnt personal
g0mikey (11:42:55 PM): but clearly, u just made it that way.

Now this myspace mesage is from somebody who has been asking for XXX pics and just being too much and just nasty. We live close to each other and he may have forgotten..but when we first started chatting a few months ago..he wanted to meet. So u put his desire to meet along with his desire to see XXX pics of me, and to know about certain areas of my body, and guess what the fuck I am going to think? Ok....read on:

Original Message -----------------From: LAME Date: Aug 19, 2008 12:28 AM
How come you never talk to me?

Original Message -----------------From: Go Mikey Milan!Date: Aug 19, 2008 12:30 AM
because im not into u.

Original Message -----------------From: LAME Date: Aug 19, 2008 12:42 AM
I was never looking to hook up dude...Besides you arn't even my type...Though your bod hair and ass are hot...thats all

See, you can't even reject somebody without them going on the offense.

PS, he has never seen my arse, so I have no idea why he thinks its "hot." gross.

I am so done. lol

Its not personal, but I don't like you like that..

...and I do not want to date you. Maybe you can take it personal, and you have every right to..but right now I am not into dating. I'm not even really into "hooking up" either. I do have "needs"..but they aren't important anymore. Those "needs" are a bit of a bother and sometimes require too much work. You are attractive, but I have other stuff that is occupying my time.

I appreciate your compliments...they never get old..but I still don't want to date you. Or him.

That's how I feel right about now. I just don;t want to be fucking bothered with guys right now (the swearing part is not supposed to sound angry..but I swear quite often when I speak. I'm not mad! lol). I actually have been kind of distant from my friends as well. This year I set off on this self improving journey and I have made some huge progress. I am very proud of myself for the things that I have done this year, but the more I accomplish the more work I see that has to be done. Its a bit unsettling, but not discouraging. At least I do not believe it to be.

I decided to try therapy to see if I could get anything out of it. I went to one appointment and half way thru it, I felt that I maybe didn't have to be there. Therapy would have been ideal in my teenage years or early 20's...shit..last year would have been good too. I have a few more appointments that I will use up before I make a final decision. The therapist asked me why I chose to try therapy..I was honest and told her that I realized that people are capable of change if they choose it...and I am choosing to change. I went on to tell her that I am an example against the common belief that people never change. I am not the same person I was this time last year. That Mikey was a very sad and lonely person. He also drank too much. lol

I expressed that I am willing to try anything a few times to see if it benefits not just the problems on the surface, but maybe even the way I process my thoughts and emotions. She seemed impressed..but it was my first time really doing something like this..so she could have been pacifying my ego.

Lets see...what else. Yes! how horrible is this karma?

e[10:47 PM]: so tell me about that guy u went out with
[10:48 PM]: was he ugly
G0Mikey [10:49 PM]: no
G0Mikey [10:49 PM]: he was ok
G0Mikey [10:49 PM]: its so weird
[10:49 PM]: y?
G0Mikey [10:49 PM]: and another reason why i want to move more..
G0Mikey [10:49 PM]: he tried to holla at me literally 10 years ago..when i was 18
[10:50 PM]: oh wow!
G0Mikey [10:50 PM]: he was like 21
G0Mikey [10:50 PM]: but he dissed me for somebody else
G0Mikey [10:50 PM]: in a very shady way
[10:50 PM]: ahhhhhhhh
G0Mikey [10:50 PM]: but that was 10 years ago..
G0Mikey [10:50 PM]: im not mad
G0Mikey [10:50 PM]: im passed that..but yeah..
G0Mikey [10:50 PM]: he hit me up...and was sweating me to meet up with him
G0Mikey [10:51 PM]: and u know what? although i dont hold any grudges against him...
G0Mikey [10:51 PM]: i just think he is apart of my past..
G0Mikey [10:51 PM]: and i want it to stay there
G0Mikey [10:52 PM]: no hard feelings..but u know...this time around..im the one thats not into u
G0Mikey [10:52 PM]: and im trying to tell him that without sounding shady
[10:52 PM]: awwww
[10:53 PM]: true
G0Mikey [10:53 PM]: he called me earlier and i looked at my phone...
G0Mikey [10:53 PM]: and i was like..yuck
G0Mikey [10:53 PM]: and i felt bad
G0Mikey [10:53 PM]: but im not going to lead him on the way he did to me
[10:53 PM]: yeah exactly

I really need to stay off those gay cruisy sites! lol

Oh yeah...Happy Holidays. ;)

Oral Business.

This is a random question I had to ask somebody I have been sexually active with. I wanted to ask this question for awhile...so on my way home from the gym, on my sidekick, I asked this question:

Mikey: So yeah..I have a random question...and u will laugh..or read..or both
Mikey: U there?
xxxx: i am
Mikey: Ok...when I gave u head...how was it? Cuz I really never do that..and my ex didn't like head..so at one point I didn't do it for 3 years...I'm just curious
Mikey: I wanna know if I'm doing it wrong
Mikey: Lol
Mikey: :-[
xxxx: QUITE good
Mikey: Ooo
Mikey: Ok
Mikey: That's good to know
Mikey: Thanks
Mikey: I be scared to do it
---------------------- 10:22 pm ----------------------
xxxx: u should do it more
Mikey: Lol

There you have it! I know how to give head. lol