Birthday Party Pics

Feb 15th was my birthday but Feb 17th was the celebration for it. My dear friend Stephanie (aka my other big sister) came up with the idea to have a party. It worked and I along with everybody else had a great time. Here are some pics:

Thank you to everybody who showed up (not everybody is pictured). There was a little over 40 people throughout the night and it was drama free with plenty to drink. There was nothing but smiles, laughter and memorable moments. Thanks to it being my party (making it not kosher to be the usual drunk I am) there were less scandals. Ha!

Love ya!

Mikey

Happy Valentine's Day

Good Mourning - India Arie

Good mourning silence, good mourning to myself
Good mourning to the pain in the center of my chest
It's crazy how much I miss A simple good mourning kiss
Good mourning independence or is it loneliness
I know I said I wanted this but I have regrets
I prayed for God's will to be done
The very next day you were gone
Good mourning to the harsh realities of life
And good mourning to the fact we're not husband and "wife"
We made a promise to stay
But destiny got in the way
Good mourning Good mourning acceptance, good mourning inner strength
I'm loving every moment even the strain
It's crazy how much I miss
A simple good mourning kiss
It's crazy how much I've missed
Now it's time for me to live
Good mourning Good mourning optimism good mourning to my faith
Good mourning to the beginning of a brand new day
I know that God's Will will be done
So I lay down my pain and I'm moving on
I know that God's Will will be done
So it's a good morning after all

This song along with "In God's Hands," by Nelly Furtado and India.Arie's cover to Don Henleys "Heart of the Matter," helped me get to this day. I have to say that I am doing great compared to this time last year. Thankfully, I am no longer that person: http://redreport.blogspot.com/2006/02/dear-valentine.html

I love you all and on this Valentine's Day I hope you find love within yourself.

Mikey

Real Mary fans know..

..that when Mary cries...you cry.



This Grammy Performance (along with her first win onstage) had me holding back my tears. I love Mary like she is family. I have watched her grow and I have grown with her. No matter how happy Mary gets, we will always see the pain on her face that she had to endure. And oddly enough it looks great.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsNH2q2qDmM

I love you Mary.

Slow

I have been meaning to post for quite some time now but I have been lazy. Since I am not only single, but refraining from partying and hanging out, I have been spending too much time online. Not only that, but I have a Sidekick phone that keeps me connected when I am out. Its such an odd cycle that I have fallen into. I have so much to type about that I have been holding in..but as usual, when the moment passes I let it go and move onto the next.

My Birthday is this week (feb 15th) and I will be 28 years old. Madness! Now more and more I see how much time I have to catch up on. Its weird because I see Britney Spears doing all of that shit to herself and being this huge mess...but I really sympathize with that woman. She really has been thru a lot and is just doing all of the wrong things because she is so lost in her emotions that she can't see past her pain. That was me last year. Of course on a much smaller scale. I am better now. However, it takes more then just a new year to change everything. It takes time.

Not only does it take time, but it takes a lot of inner strength. As I played thru 2006, I didn't fully grasp how much I would be paying for it in 2007. I put myself in this party state of mind that had me out at least 3 nights a week, drunk, spending too much on clothes (sneakers!) and traveling. I keep reminding myself that it takes baby steps to progress. Its because of this state of mind that I believe that people can change. I have so much faith in myself..I know I can change...I just have to focus.

Valentine's Day is coming up and for obvious reasons I cannot wait for it to come and go. Around this time I can't help but to think of my ex and how this is the time last year (today to be exact) that we broke up. And of course I remind myself that it takes time. It really does...somtimes I cant tell if Im still waiting.

On a random note I am sporting a small hicky on my neck. lol Not something I like but it was worth it.

=)

Complain.

Im kinda down right now. I wish I was not in this position but these are the cards that have been dealt to me. I want to be out of Boston so bad. Now that I am not a drunk and Im not clubbing 3 days a week I can once again see what is around me. After the New Years fiasco I felt it would be best for me to just lay low and take care of myself. It has been difficult because I really do miss going out and being hammered, but what good is that going to do me? I don't want to get away from my problems, I want to solve them.

I read somebody's blog about letting go of people who do not want to be held. It was specific to relationships but I can see how it would apply to all relationships. Friends, family and lovers. If you can see that somebody no longer needs or wants you around...why stay? Easier said then done but I think we should all embrace the power of letting go. Good-bye's open up the doors to new things.

I have so much going thru my head right now...I just don't feel like typing it out. I went to 2 clubs 2nite and it brought me down. lol I wanted a drink!! Maybe that's what it was....ugh.

I need inspiration.

Because We Look Cute

About 2 months ago at Raul's Hawaiian Themed party.

Mashups/Bootlegs

I recomend everybody go to this website and check out these hot mashups. Cobraeater is one of my favorites. I made a cd cover for it so it pops up whenever my media player plays it.

http://www.bass211.com/Bass211Podcast/index.html

Yummy.

Single

February 11th will mark me being single for a year. No dating either. Some flirting and a few sex romps but nothing serious at all. I keep saying that I want to date and that I am ready to meet somebody new bla bla bla. But I dont think that is the case. I am lonely and miss just laying down next to somebody I care for and randomly slow dancing ...but I have too much to accomplish this year. Being with somebody will just slow me down and I can't afford to be distracted again.

I have already slowed down the partying and I havent had a "drink" since New Years. I can do without it and it feels great to come home and not be drunk while putting my key in the door. I know it hasnt been a lot of time (only 3 weeks) since I dropped the partying and drinking, but I cannot imagine being like that anymore. However, I do NOT frown upon it! I just can't fit that into my life right at this time. Now I have to work on sleeping early on the days that I would normally go out.

My bday is coming up (Feb 15th) and I am excited for it to come and go. For the last few years my bday has been...well...not so good. Lets just leave it at that. So I am trying to plan something and maybe throw a party...maybe just a get together somewhere..I have no idea..I just want to celebrate. One of my friends told me that my year seems to not officially start until my bday because something life changing usually happens on it that forces me to switch everything up.

So I look forward to this new "New Year" coming up.

On a random note: This is a pic that is on the Krash website (krashnyc.com). This was a very good night and I look forward to seeing my NY friends again. I miss ya'll so much!


8-19-06

In God's Hands

I bought 29 CD's last year because I bought like 2 the year before. Not only did I buy up all of the sneakers but I bought up all of the damn music too! I am a HUGE music fanatic and have a lot of knowledge about inside stuff. Its such a passion. Im like amusic stalking whore. For real. At some point I hope to make a few tacky 80's inspired songs of my own...before I die. Please.

So yes, I would like to hi-lite one CD in particular: Nelly Furtado's "Loose." That album got me thru my whole year. It spoke volumes to me. I was in such a hard place all year and yet "Loose" not only helped me escape my fears with all of its infectious dance tracks, it helped drain a lot of my tears with ONE track. Yes ONE track that summed up my failed relationship. "In God's Hands" has to be one of the best songs I have ever heard. Its not a masterpiece...its raw. If you have ever been in a relationship with somebody that you genuinely love during and after it has ended...and would want it back...this is the song for you. Can't express how I never let go of that light no matter how dark it got.

I love it to pieces and still play that song along with the entire album..over and over and over again.

Just wanted to share that.

Another Happy Belated Birthday...

..to Aaliyah Dana Haughton. Born January 16, 1979.



She would have been 27 this year but instead she is timeless.

The song titles "One In A Million" and "More Then A Woman" couldn't describe her any better. It always takes an artist like Aaliyah to start a new sound for a genre of music. Never was she a huge star like Beyonce or Britney Spears, but she helped change the sound of R&B before they came out. One In A Million marked the explosian of double beats in R&B music that had some radio DJ's scratching their heads with the fact that they had a hot track....but didn't know how to mix it in with the "other" music they had. Good music always prevails one way or another and tracks like "4 Page Letter," "Hot Like Fire" and of course "One In A Million" changed the direction of black music forever. How did this happen? This was the official unveiling of Timbaland and Missy's off the hook sound (that everybody wanted AFTERwards).

While first getting their feet wet with Jodeci, the duo created a different sound that landed in Aaliyah's lap. Had it been another R&B star this might not have happened. However she wanted a change from her first album and took a chance. That chance paid off and One In A Million is a bonafide classic and must have for your R&B collection. She was on her way to being a big star but unfortunately she passed away and left many of us with feelings of "what could have happened next?" But for me what was supposed to happen already happened. Anybody can be a big star with the right gimmick or right talent at the right time....but can we all change something as big as music?

Thank you Aaliyah for taking a chance.

Catch Me

I am also on MySpace: http://www.myspace.com/redmilan

So I'm Fuckable

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Blackout

So after 5 shots of Tequilla and various other Vodka related drinks...I blacked out. Which I had no idea I had blacked out until my friends told me the things I did. Here is what I kkind of remember:

















I will post more later today. lol

Im Still Here

It's 2007 and I am still here. Still here meaning I made it thru and I am going to keep going. I decided that my New Years Resolution would be to focus. I am not going to set myself up for dissapointment anymore by saying shit like "Im going to learn how to drive this year!" or "I am going to move out of Boston this year!" I cant do that anymore. Its like a set up for failure. Instead I am just going to focus on the cards that I have in front of me and take it day by day. That is all I can do.

Yes I still want to get the fuck out of Boston and yes I would still like to learn how to drive. But it will happen if it is meant to be. I would also like to start dating again but it is so hard to do that here. It is some slim fucking pickings man! For real. Something always got to be wrong. The men here are either trying to get me to mess with them on the side while they have a man at home or they are trying to make me their "lady." Im not a bottom fellas (unless u give it up first =P). Stop.

I also learned a huge lesson in regards to the ex at the very end of December. We fell into this situation where we were spending way too much time on each other and having sex quite often. Come to find out he was not as single as he said he was. Such a mess. I know I have professed my love for him on this blog many times but if he fell off the face of the earth I couldnt be any happier.

Enough about that mess. So yes...It's me. All me. Still here.

I will post quite a few of New Year party pics sometime this week.

Smile =)

Chain or No Chain?

I like them both but the chain makes me want to.....

Still Out and About

Big ups to my homie J.R. from Cali who took these pics. Crazy guy.

Forward

The reason behind me not blogging the way I normally do is because I have become complacent with my lifestyle. I have had this love hate relationship with Boston for years because most of my good friends end up moving away. I never wanted to feel pressured to move because everybody else is doing it. Im not that kind of person. I mean helllo..Im 27 years old and I JUST started drinking.

However this year sparked something in me to do so. I have endured so much pain and betrayal this year. I have said this plenty of times before but I will say it again, I am not a cryer. But that is what I did from February to about June. Maybe even once in July. lol Its been a really hard and challenging year for me but it has been so important and defining for me as well. I have learned a great deal about myself and I am not just stronger but I am also proud of myself. Proud because I still have my faith. The faith that I m talking about is in regards to myself and other people.

Lately I have been hanging out with some pretty kool people. All young and grown people of color who like to party but hold down jobs and take care of themselves. No fag scandals just really good times. I have been a part of this group of people since I stopped my NYC trips. I have been having such a good time that I have fallen off track. Its easy to lose site of what you have to do when you are having a good time.

I recently drank too much Patrone and had to be helped out of the club. lol I then went home and vomited 6 times. yeah. gross. I then got up a few hours later and went to work for 8 hours. It was miserable...but it woke me the fuck up. I got to stop partying and get on with my plans. I need to start saving again and continue with my goals.

I will post some pics soon.

Miss me,
Mikey

The Weekend In Pictures

All of it was unplanned.